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I am bad at keeping this up to date....sorry lj.
Im in ontario, yesterday was really hard...I got wicked supportive
voicemails which helped. and after putting the ashes in the water relatives and
old friends of my mom came over and visited..we looked at lots of photos and
hung out with my granma and aunts and childhood friends..it was a bit stressfull in
the way of having to be chatty and introduced to people and making small talk with
people who knew me when I was little but I have no idea who they are. but after awhile me and my sisters
and cousins and third cousins?/childhood friends hung out with each other and kathy (my moms bf) and talked about how its wierd to be here without my mom.it was good. then since yesterday ive been distracting myself
with movie watching, mixed drinks and the internet. Im leaving tomorrow at 6am ..ten hour train ride...argg.